I spent today with my little sister for the most part. We made memories, you know. She came in my room as I was playing the piano, and she found it really cool. After getting past a little bout on insecurity, I convinced her she could try playing to, and she did.
Slowly we learned to play Baby Shark — the catchy little kids’ song. We also tried to make a song of our own. Then we binged an entire season of Cobra Kai.
Maybe it’s a dark thought, but I feel like when I die, she won’t remember the Christmas gifts or birthdays… Our time spent together will live forever in her mind. Hopefully it’ll be a long time until she experiences that.
This morning I told myself I’d try doing something different today. Usually I’m reading up on ways to make money or acquire wealth and I just chilled out for once. The mistake I made today was not being honest.
I lied to someone who relied on me and then cut all contact with that person assuming they would not worry. I feel really sorry I made that person feel bad. I realise I shouldn’t have done that now, yet I can’t see a way to prevent making the same mistake.
You see, sometimes in life you’ll have to choose whether to tell the truth or lie. To this day, 80% of times, I chose to lie. Now I’m stuck in this loop in which I want to be honest and tell the truth but don’t want to end relationships badly.
If there’s one thing I’d love my sister to remember is that you should always be honest with people — it’s why I’m always honest with her. I don’t want her to get into the troubles lying has got me into. It feels shitty to know that you’re giving others false hope.
To be honest, I don’t think anyone will ever read this but if you’re reading this, stranger, please, PLEASE, don’t lie. If you have the courage to tell the truth, ALWAYS, life will reward you.
Sadly, I don’t have that type of courage yet.
